You can do ANYTHING
I have been visiting zombocom a lot lately. It’s clear that I can do anything there. I highly recommend it. Especially when the voices inside your head are in direct contrast with what the voices on zombocom tell you. Pull that little diddy up and you’re all set.
I bet you think I am being sarcastic. Or even funny and fictional. I’m not. I am quite serious, in fact.
Another part of my process to finally become whatever it is in this lifetime I am supposed to become, is doing my regular tarot card readings. Then I journal about them in my book and draw pictures to solidify what it is my guides are trying to tell me to do. I prefer guides to angels and I prefer spiritual journey, higher power to God™ yes in the trademarked sense – but you just use whatever visuals you need to. Don’t let me offend your belief system.
Now, before anyone gets all regal and says this is devil’s work – it’s not. In fact QUITE the opposite. I have said it before that “the devil” has far more important work to get done than concern himself with tarot cards. Well, Vegas and “ITS” cards are a whole different story. Pure evil lives there (aside from the killer deliciously cheap buffets) I’m quite sure I met Senor Diablo there once or twice when I lived in Vegas for a bit. Felt the presence “of” behind the Sands when I saw folks buying drugs and other pleasures of the flesh IN BROAD DAYLIGHT as I drove by while doing errands as a runner for Paramount.
Overall, fun town (stay ON the strip) but could never consider LIVING there. Not to mention its in the desert and I wont even go into the environmental nightmare it poses.
Anyway, back to my exploratory findings which are my life, this tarot card reading proved to be very positive and encouraging (before this they were not, yet they were definitely telling me to get my head out of my ass and nobody really likes to be told that, but if they are honest with themselves they will realize it, try to swallow it, and work on it) The main theme THIS TIME however, was to be fearless and success WILL come my way. And I mean EVERY card said that.
Woot!
So I am going to continue on my present path of crazy and do just that. But I also like Morgyn’s idea too.
But, why does the movie A Beautiful Mind always surface when I am in the throws of creativity? I think we all know how THAT turned out.
August 6, 2008 |
Time for something new
Well, I decided it was time to get the glasses I have always wanted. The vintagey “cat’s eye” glasses with little sparkles on the side. A goofy smile, but heh, I’ve never been too photogenic.
Hey, and thank you all for the kind comments on my previous entry. I have been learning a lot lately about how when I start gaining momentum in my endeavors, that I self sabotage and cease to continue. Over and over and over again. It is a struggle, but this time I’m determined to work through it this unhelpful cycle and pattern in my life.
The previous entry dedicated to being “on a roll”
This post is all about staying on the roll and not getting left behind in the wake of that roll.
Ever gone tubing? Behind a speed boat? Every time the boat takes off you swear you are not going to let go, but somehow it happens and your in the middle of the lake hoping the boat notices and turns around to get you?
I’m still on the tube, so no worries, I’m just worried about the sharp turn the boat that’s pulling me seems to want to make. Maybe it will maybe it wont, but I’m keeping my eye on it.
On that note, I’m gonna take a night time nap.
August 4, 2008 |
Well, I’m not dead
And we didn’t drown.
Believe it or not, these are questions I have been asked, so I thought I would put to rest any terrifying suspicions of my whereabouts.
This summer I have been up to few things. Making lots of art, writing like a fiend, and most recently, setting up my home recording studio to lay down some tasty shakes and quakes.
Perhaps some of you are unaware, or maybe you are, that I have been in a band for eight years.
Unfortunately we haven’t been playing out for a while now, which I’ll be honest is completely depressing for me, as I really like to be up there. But I’m not going to dwell in that dark corner right now. Professor-You-Suck has apparently taken a summer holiday because without his meddling, I have been in a really positive state of mind and on a rare roll lately.
Speaking of inspiration, my dear friend Morgyn: Made. My. Day. by sending me a link to her Etsy store displaying her kick-ass’d artwork and a piece she did of me during Sweet Jelly’s “touring” hay day. It’s kind of surreal seeing your “stage persona” made into a work of art like something you would see in the Rock and Hall of Fame. She’s amazing! Buy her pieces!
Thank you Morgyn. I needed that pick-me up fantasy.
I also got additional inspiration from a movie I stumbled upon over the weekend entitled La Vie En Rose about real life singer Edith Piaf. Her life was incredibly heartbreaking throughout, but she persevered. And this actress does an AMAZING job! Spot on!
Here is a real-life clip however of her performing the song Milord.
A little clip of the actress singing this tremendous song which I will confess readily made me (shhhhh) cry. The little bridge is just heartbreakingly delicate. I could live in that for quite a while.
All the woman wanted to do was sing onstage and went to great lengths to do so.
July 28, 2008 |
